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Something is up for me, something around form and here is where I get the inform-ation about that. (See earlier post on Information)

In January, I attended a Tarot Pilgrimage for 2009 with Pamela Eakins. We pulled cards for each month of the year. My card for May is One of Earth (Form).

I am currently doing a 10 Powers Tarot journey with Pamela and this week the card we are working with is One of Earth (Form).

Pamela did a reading for me regarding my heart’s desire (wouldn’t you like to know what that is – I’m not telling) and the middle card was One of Earth (Form).

One of the questions posed by that card is what wants to be manifest into form now? What I read said the card is telling me to stop thinking about things and do them NOW.

It was driving me a little nuts. I had this sense of urgency. I mean the same card in 3 different readings converging at the same point…surely I must do something now! I found myself pacing agitatedly and asking, “but what? ” And I’m not talking I-don’t-have-a-clue-what, but which what? If you’ve ever had that problem you are familiar with the train wreck that follows.

Then, this morning while meditating on the card, something shifted. I saw NOW from a different angle. I saw that everything before NOW was THEN. (I know, duh) Every good idea, theory or creative expression from before is no longer an inspiration for form in the now. Things have changed. I have changed. So I ask myself: What is it that wants to happen now, because this is no longer then?

You are probably wondering when the Cheshire cat and the Mad Hatter appear…

In that moment of insight, I was released from the past and able to breathe into freedom, to catch a glimpse of what true freedom is.

Oak Sunset (K Loh)

Oak Sunset (K Loh)

I look at the oaks outside my window. When they were acorns full of potential there were many possibilities for what they would look like 10 or 20 years later. As they grew, environmental factors determined which way the branches would grow, which branches would become strong and which would fall away. With each passing moment, the options for what was once possible become redirected by virtue of what has happened so far. The infinite possibilities inherent in the acorn, are fewer.  And at every moment there is a question of what now, or which way now?

This is a simple illustration of being aware that we will have to hold our plans lightly.

I have a garage full of what could be called branches; boxes of music from my piano teaching years, synthesizer setups and computers for a learning lab I used in my studio. I have two windsurfers, sails, skis, mountain bike and tons of miscellaneous stuff in boxes including books. They all represent something from my past, some way in which I identified myself, some role I played or world in which I belonged. Some hold a higher potential of being part of my NOW than others.

Those that are part of my now are the branches that are still connected to my trunk. The ones that have some potential, but are not really present for me are connected, but have lost leaves. Others are branches that have fallen away and need to be cleaned up, recycled back into the community where they will nourish others.

The breath of freedom I received was in knowing that all the things and ideas from the past were what wanted to happen then and I had a great track record of bringing them into form. If I spend all my time herding the past, I will miss what it is that wants to happen now.

Focusing upon what wants to happen now, I lean into faith and I listen to the whispers of my soul and the times in which I live. Becoming present, I participate in creating as much as preserving. I do not lose my past. I am my past. I am a composition of all I have ever seen, done, said, thought, felt. That’s what  makes each of us, in this big pool of one-ness, so unique.  And all that I am contributes in that unique way to what I am up to now. I am informed by all those old ideas, doings and ways of being, but I don’t have to be chained to them, drained by them or beholding to them.

So when I ask the question – “what will I manifest into form now?” I no longer feel an urgency to pick an answer. I find it strangely pleasant to live in the question and while I’m living there (or should I say here), I become very creative and forms begin to make themselves  tangible through me.

How about you?

What comes up for you around all the stuff (internal and external) you have hanging around from the past?

How does it potentially help you navigate uncertain times whether in your own life or in our economic climate in general?

What wants to happen, through you,  now?

copyright(c) Kathy Loh, April 2009, all rights reserved

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I’ve just discovered a lovely set of short talks and descriptions of beautiful meditations with Thich Naht Hanh on Oprah’s site.

I highly recommend them (despite the quick commercial on the front end).

Want a respite from your day?

Want to become centered and grounded right now?

Been at Twitter, email or Facebook too long?

Always useful and perfect for those moments when you find yourself indecisive, overwhelmed and spinning.

You can choose from breathing, mountain solid, flower fresh, water reflecting, space free meditations.

Follow this link below. From there, you can view the others

Thich Nhat Hanh – Space Free

On Oprah’s site there are many brief audios to explore that will rejuvenate your body, mind, spirit and heart.

Click on the link below for more audio meditations for revitalizing the body and then have fun exploring.

Meditations for rejuvenating body

I’ll be back again later today with another post. Meanwhile enjoy this beautiful day that was given to us. All we need to do is receive.

copyright(c) Kathy Loh April 2009 all rights reserved

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Today, I’m sharing with you a very simple and effective way to become more aware, more conscious, reduce stress and guess what….it doesn’t have to be hard!

Stop

Breathe

Notice

Go ahead and try it right now.

Stop:  whatever you are doing and be still

Breathe: let your belly be soft and your back straight so as to give the airways a chance to expand and breathe in and out easily.

Notice: Allow yourself to be curious, from a childlike state of not-knowing and non-judgment.

What do you notice about how your body feels (including your breathing)?

What do you notice about your thoughts? Are they charged, pressured, focused, scattered, whiney, empowering?

What do you notice about your feelings? Are you being with your feelings? Are you repressing them? Are you wondering what it is to feel?

What do you notice about your spirit? Is it present, absent, patient, impatient?

What do you notice about your environment?

Check in with your senses: what do you hear, see, feel (as in touch), taste, smell and sense (intuitively)?

You don’t need to ask yourself all of these questions and you will come up with some of your own. They are all designed to bring awareness to the present moment, by way of body, mind, spirit and heart.

Remember to remain curious and simply notice without passing judgment.

It takes a minute or two to do this. It is meant to be done many times throughout the day. Call it mini-meditation (which you can expand into longer sittings whenever you want).

It’s easy and it’s meant to be easy. Living consciously is a natural state and we are masters at resisting it.

Curiosity is one of the keys to playing in the mystery.

You might be wondering, “How do I remember to do this practice?”

There are a number of ways to remember to stop, breathe and notice. Here are a few suggestions:

Set your cell phone/ watch alarm or a computer beep to go off at various intervals.

Put sticky notes in prominent places like a mirror, dashboard, computer screen (create a pop-up or wall paper reminder) – Be sure to move them around since notes that are in the same place all the time become a part of the scenery and become invisible to us.

Have an awareness buddy and design an arrangement where you call or tap each other at moments to remind you to do this practice on the spot.

Bonus

Once you have become familiar with this practice, you can add the next step – shift

If you want to change the way you are talking to yourself, holding your body (generally with tension), the pace at which you are moving or even open more to your authentic emotions and raise them to a higher level on a vibrational scale, you have a better chance of shifting them after you notice what they are by default.

I’ll write more about that in a future post.

As I stop and breathe, I notice what a beautiful day it is and that I’d really love to go out for a walk right now. It’s Earth Day after all!  Meet you on the pathway…………

all photos and words copyright(c) April 2009, Kathy Loh, all rights reserved
Forest Path (K Loh)

Mystery Path (K Loh)

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I have a fun story to tell you. It’s about a prior post titled “I Love You.”

My friend “Stella” called (the name is changed to protect, not her, but her husband and you’ll soon know why).  She is one of the many people who have written or told me that they are doing the “I Love You” practice. She enthusiastically related to me how it’s going and then told me what happened for her husband. In case you are wondering, they’ve both given me permission to tell it the story.

Not long ago, Stella’s husband, (call him Max) was speaking/presenting at a conference. He invited his parents to attend, because it was an important event for him, and they did. During his talk, he invited his father to come to the stage and eulogize him. Max had seen someone eulogizing another while they were still alive and thought it was a wonderful idea. Unfortunately, Max’s father declined.

Later, Max told Stella he was disappointed. Why would his father not do this?

She asked him, “What did you want to hear from your father?”

Max replied “I’m proud of you son.”

So, Stella offered the “I love you” practice to Max. She told him to just cup his hands around his ears and say “I love you [your name]” and she went on to say that she was experiencing a nice effect from doing it every night before she goes to sleep.

“When are you doing that?” he asked.

She responded, “I do it when you’re not here.”

Stella brilliantly suggested to Max that he use the practice to say “I’m proud of you son.”

A day or two later, Max was journaling about his experience and mentioned to Stella that he thought it was a good technique.

“Have you been doing it?” she asked.

He said he’d slipped into the closet and told himself, “I’m proud of you Max” once in each ear,  (using his own name instead of son).

He wrote in his journal, “It’s brought a big smile to my face. Good technique.”

I laughed with delight when my friend related this story to me. It’s so simple. It’s so easy. All we have to do is tell ourselves what we long to hear. Saying it out loud boosts the power (see my prior posting for the reason why).

Hiding in the closet, saying it in private, that’s what I find so intriguing and I’m no less shy than anyone else. There’s something we find embarrassing about saying kind things to and about ourselves, and we are dying to hear those words. To me, that’s like being thirsty and waiting for someone to offer us a drink rather than just pouring ourselves a glass of water.

Morro Bay (Kathy Loh)

Morro Bay (Kathy Loh)

This is a form of sound healing. You can do it once or you can make it a daily practice. Like meditation or playing an instrument, you will likely see more profound, surprising and sustainable results if you make it a consistent practice. If you miss here and there, don’t fret.  If doing it before you go to sleep doesn’t work, try it when you are taking your daily shower. You may find that there are a number of different things you want to say to yourself. There’s no rule, except to let it be loving. You’ve had plenty of practice with negative self- criticism and derision.

This is meant to be loving and easy.

What I am suggesting is we all come “out of the closet” and let ourselves openly love our selves. We are original beings born from Divine source. What’s not to love? What’s not to forgive? Maybe that’s your practice, “I forgive you [your name here].” I’ve done that one many times with wonderful results.

What do you want to hear? Tell it to yourself today and every day, using your own name, until you embody it. Your family and friends will thank you and the world will likely be a better place for it.

In an upcoming post, I’ll write about I Love You…from a relationship perspective.

Thanks Max and Stella (wink wink). I’m proud of both of you and I love you both like crazy!

PS – A couple of notes about comments:

I try to respond to your comments here on the blog. I love hearing from you, so keep it coming.

Also, some people are seeing garbled characters when they go to comments. I’m not sure why this is happening, but I’m working on it. Thanks for your patience.

all words and images copyright(c) Kathy Loh, April 2009, all rights reserved

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By now you have likely heard of Susan Boyle, the “frumpy,” innocent Scottish woman with the angelic voice who stunned and enraptured the British talent show audience and judges, including Simon Cowell, with her rendition of I Dreamed a Dream from Les Miserable. The YouTube video has been viewed over 19 million times as of this writing (3 million views occurred in the time it took me to write this blog entry).

Everyone’s talking and writing about it. Suzanne Falter-Barnes of Get Known Now writes of the lessons from a marketing platform perspective; how one can be found in this world when one has the courage to be visible and the talent to match.

The Herald printed an article by Collette Douglas Home, about Boyle from the perspective of what we value and what is truly recognition-worthy.

I have been exploring the enormity of the impact this video had on me personally. What am I feeling when I watch the video and cry? I’ve always cried when I’ve heard that song both in and out of context. Sitting next to my mother during a live performance, I cried for her lost dreams as well as my own, especially my fear of betraying my own dreams. Yet, I am familiar enough with my tears and my emotions to recognize this as something very deep and very cleansing.

A friend says she thinks it is Boyle’s triumph, the dream achieved, that brings on our tears. Yes and we have witnessed many people achieving their long sought-after dreams without this massive an impact. Is it because she is an underdog? Is it because we saw her as frumpy, odd, unsophisticated and made the assumption that talent can’t possibly live in someone like that and then got a huge awakening? Yes and…

As we continued our discussion, that same friend, who is a seasoned astrologer, proposed that it was the right time, right place, right person; a conjunction of events. This brought on an insight that resonated for me, one that explained what I was feeling in my body, mind, spirit and heart.

I’m suggesting that, through Boyle and by way of this video (edited exactly as it was), we are receiving a massive healing of our collective and individual shadow through direct transmission. What is direct transmission? Very simply, it is receiving learning, consciousness, and/or healing through vibration/energy rather than the usual channels. It is what people experience when they sit with a guru or other spiritual teacher.

Watching and listening to Susan Boyle sing so beautifully in the face of scorn and mockery, our unspoken shame for imperfection (of appearance, of success, etc) as mirrored in our material world, is healed. We are at one and the same time faced with being both the mocked and the mocker. We recognize ourselves as both the one who fears isolation and the one who isolates others.  Music, especially the human voice, is a perfect vehicle for healing. Boyle has the heart behind the voice to deliver.

After so many years of living with the tyranny of perfect looks and perfect talent perfectly packaged…

After so many years of looking at our faces and our bodies in the mirror and deriding ourselves for not being more beautiful and youthful, fighting our bodies at the gym and abusing them in the surgeon’s office…

After so many years of deifying youth and scorning age, assuming that, after a certain time in life, our dreams and thus, our usefulness, are no longer viable…

After so many years, by way of Susan Boyle and this video, we have received a healing message; a re-membering of our true soulful beauty through direct transmission. We are also forgiven for forgetting.

This healing is not about becoming famous. It is not about praising the spiritual and denying the material. It is about how we polarize the two and how out of balance humanity has become. We are spiritual and human, we live in a world that embraces both. This healing is as universal as it is individual. It is a transmission of forgiveness for all the ways we have judged ourselves and others. It is a healing of shame for our bodies, our lack of perfection, our lost years and all the times we lacked courage.  This healing is ours, if we are willing to receive it.

A transmission of healing is a gift and can only be received if we open to it. When our tears fall as we listen to Susan; when we smile and laugh for her victory, when our heart and chest swell with pride for her courage, we might ask ourselves: “What is the shadow within me that is being healed in this moment?” and receive that light and love. There is nothing more we need to do to avail ourselves of this amazing gift that has been given to all of us as it spreads around the globe at lightning speed.

Susan Boyle is both a channel of this transmission and a human being with a big voice and a big dream. It is a reminder that we are all channels of love, we are love. We all have a unique voice and a dream.  I don’t know about you, but when I go about my day today, I’m going to notice all the angel-humans around me. I’m going to remain curious and open to the question: What is the unique expression and gift offered by everyone who crosses my path today? What is their, and my, unique message to the world?  What will I open to receive and what will I have the courage to give?

Thank you, Susan Boyle!

all words and images copyright (C) April 2009, Kathy Loh, all rights reserved

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(W)in(D)formation

Today, I’m letting the wind inform me. It’s wildly gusty up here in the hills. Leaves are riding the wind waves to the shore of my driveway (though a few pirouette in skyward spirals on updrafts). Anything that’s not tied down, is going to blow away, blow down or mercilessly get tossed around. From this side of the double-paned windows, it sounds like a parade of jets departing SFO. Nothing knows stillness on a day like today.

I’ve known big winds in my own life, the kind that knock you sideways. A few years ago, one of those winds cut me loose. I can’t say whether it was losing or finding my center that set me adrift. Maybe it was switching my notion of center, from an external to an internal point, that had this boat I call “me” slip away from its dock.

The old anchors of home, marriage, and career had, all three, changed at the same time. I came to know many harbors as I let the winds of change blow me around. I began to know myself without the old anchors. I began to know myself as a center among many centers in the whole of life. I built a relationship with the Divine through meditation, ritual and nature. Now, the wind, the trees, the blowing leaves, all speak to me and they pose a lot of questions.

Windswept (Kathy Loh)

Windswept (Kathy Loh)

Today, I am asked and asking:

What needs to be released?

Am I meeting the winds of change with rigidity or giving them room to move through me?

Do I hunker down, ride it in exhilaration or let it snap me in two?

How sound are my roots?

Where have I chosen to plant myself and how secure and nurturing is the ground beneath me?

Am I clinging precipitously to a hillside or have I chosen more solid conditions?

Will I offer welcome sanctuary to other windswept creatures?

When the wind roars at me, will I roar back? Will I laugh as loudly?

Am I willing to dance, glide and dive in rapturous joy?

All these little leaf-boats setting sail upon this wind…do they know their center?

Do they know they are loved?

I have a Brian Andreas StoryPeople® print that says “I spent a long time trying to find my center until I looked closely one night and found it had wheels and moved easily in the slightest breeze, so now I spend less time sitting and more time sailing.”

When I bought that print, I could only dream of a center with wheels. Over these last few years, I developed a sturdy set of wheels and I am no longer adrift. I’m sailing. Sometimes skillfully and all too often flailing, but I’m sailing.

Today, I am grateful for in-formation from the wind.

all words and images copyright (c) April 2009, Kathy Loh, all rights reserved
header photo by Kathy Loh

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photo: Kathy Loh

photo: Kathy Loh

  • Magazines
  • Newspapers
  • TV News
  • Radio Broadcasts
  • Educational Shows
  • Documentaries
  • Books
  • Blogs
  • Facebook and Twitter
  • Billboards
  • Bumperstickers
  • Newsletters
  • Ezines
  • Classes
  • Email
  • Cubicle gossip

. . . . . . . . . . .Information

  • Hawk soaring
  • Lizard sunning
  • Hummingbird darting
  • Squirrels scampering
  • Coyote vanishing
  • Bobcat watching
  • Owl hooting
  • Butterfly flitting
  • Soft patter of rain
  • Whale cry
  • Children’s laughter
  • Whisperings of your heart

. . . . . . . . . . .Information

  • Oils and pastels
  • Ivory and ebony
  • Rhythm and melody
  • Movement and shape
  • word soup
  • Behind the lens
  • Wet clay
  • Hard marble
  • Hot glass
  • Soft fabric
  • Malleable wood
  • Costume and dialogue
  • Improvisation

. . . . . . . . . . . Information

What informs you?

What   in-forms    you?

I invite you to leave a comment with your answer….

(click on comments/no comments below)

 words and images copyright (c) April 2009 Kathy Loh all rights reserved

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